According to TV Guide, the American Idol alum told Behind the Music explicit reasons for her medication overdose:
"I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out," Barrino told VH1's Behind the Music. "At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with -- all of it, all of that [expletive]."
"I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle," Barrino said. "I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."
Barrino's manager, Brian Dickens, said that he suspected something was wrong when Barrino, who had been "crying all day" texted him, "I love you." He texted her back the same thing.
"Then it hit me," he said. "I wrote, 'You better not do anything or think about doing anything stupid.' And I left it at that. About 10 minutes later, Fantasia texted me back, and she said, 'Already did.' I went into Fantasia's room and saw her on the floor, and my heart just dropped."
Creepy. I mean, even a famously beleaguered star like country singer Mindy McCready hasn't divulged her demons in such a short span of time. But what am I saying? Grim PR tactics are par for the course when it comes to a VH1 star like Fantasia Barrino, as she works for the same network that gave us Celebrity Rehab, The Surreal Life, and reality competition series that aren't very good at weeding out sociopaths. Her consultation with Dr. Drew is surely forthcoming.
Fantasia on Overdose: 'You Can't Accidentally Take a Whole Bottle of Pills' [TV Guide]